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ok now for the anticipated results: 8 A1s, 6 points. YEAHHHHHHHHHHH. ok i shall now say the story right from the beginning. today we were very restless in lectures. we were talking about conveniently poning lectures but in the end we still went for them. lucky for us that we went for chem. it was so important because it actually made us understand the current chapter more. mr goh teaches well. then we went for maths. nice cosy let us off early. as usual, our class stoned for a long while. we just sat in the LT until everyone was gone, and continued sitting there freaking everyone else out about Os results and laughing over various stuff. Somehow we managed to lug ourselves to change for PE. actually i didnt want PE at all. i was so unwilling to change into PE tee. we sang birthday song for yu cheng and xiu hui at the grandstand. yu cheng got a watch and xiu hui, a custom made necklace. so nice. oh and i managed to finish both their presents. i made xiu hui's this morning when i reached sch at 7. haha. coz i had no time yesterday after making yu cheng's one. then we played netball. yu cheng somehow caused nanthini to fall and hurt her ankle. in the end she had to go to a polyclinic. after that we didnt have much mood to play. because the Os results are to be released quite soon. and ny is just beside loh! every time i turn my head i see ny. then i get stressed and i start to freak out from within. well anyway, after accompanying nanthini until she went off, everyone started to freak out. and get inside info about the results. wanxuan actually came running back to us after she got out of nj to tell us that in ny, all pure history ppl got distinctions and she was literally jumping around. in the end a whole group of us went to kap to eat. i was waiting for lao gong to come, so i couldn't buy any food. so i was being my usual free loader style. then lao gong came and then cyn came. we ate together and then went to sch to look for teachers. we didnt get much info from the teachers we met. but there was free ice cream in the canteen. no one knows why. but never mind. who cares. then we went to the hall. cyn was v nervous and kept holding on to my hand. when it got on to the part when they flashed the names of students with 8A1s and above, she started to shake uncontrollably. my name was up on the list of 8A1s, along with many of my classmates. actually i wasn't v happy at first. i guess i expected more. but cyn's name never appeared. that was it. she screamed and hugged me and cried. she was still very shaken when she received her result slip. she cried somemore. i tried to comfort her. well everyone did v well. cyn got 6 pts, just that she had one more A2 than me so she got 7 A1s. lao gong got 8 pts, beat, el and mel got 9pts. this is incredible. so they are now thinking of coming into nj. haha. well so i started smsing everyone about my results. joan, wee pin, mervyn, cumarran, kenneth, ling ling. well everyone replied me but wee pin. so i started to feel a little funny. so i smsed him again to ask him if he's ok. he replied and said that he was dying. i sort of freaked out and called him. he didn't sound too good and hung up by saying that he was talking to yu cheng and that he would call back. if i didnt hear wrongly he said something about not being able to stay in nj. that worried me. in the end he called back and told me he didn't get A1 for any science and english. he said so much but he just didn't say how much he scored. so i asked him and he eventually said: 5 A1s 7 pts. i wanted to kill him there and then. made me worry so much! and wasted my talktime again! hahahaha. ok conclusion: i'm blind and easy to fool. ok anyway, later the zoo ie the 6 of us went to orchard with hito. beat, lao gong (for the first time!) and i could eat dinner outside. my curfew was 9pm. we went to eat sakae sushi at heerens and in the end it cost us $101++! it was damn ex. hito and cyn left first, because cyn had to go home for dinner and reach home by 7. so hito gave me $30 to pay for their share, which is more than enough. we each paid our own share and i went to pay. turned out that there was not enough money. somehow we reckoned that it has to be the tea that we drank, so i paid out of my own pocket and realized that i was broke. i had 30 bucks at first and after eating i'm broke?! doesn't make sense to me. but the bill was right. so when i looked at the receipt carefully i realized that the service charge and gst added up to be about $13. this is nonsense loh! in the end they paid me back so i had money again! we went to take neoprint too. mel paid for it. and then the rest went home while me and lao gong went to take a walk around heerens and talked about whether to go hc or nj. we couldn't reach a conclusion before we parted. when i reached home, mum reached home from church too. after i told everything that happened today and we settled down to drink some coconut juice, she told me that she would let me choose which sch i would go to. i was so thankful for that. God works. she just went to church and that's what happened. prayer works. oh thank God man! oh well mon i think i'll be going out with my class, though we havent arranged anything yet. wee pin joan and i refuse to rot at home. hope we actually find something to do. it's damn late now i better sleep.
oh well tomorrow is the day. I'M FREAKING OUT ALREADY! oh no... and the problem with my mum still stands. i'm dead. but i shall keep that at the back of my mind first. today something very stupid happened. i still want to laugh when i think about it. when i went home today as usual i crossed the bridge and went to the bus stop. i stood there for some time and checked my hp. later it rang. it was wee pin. i was wondering why he would call me, but anyhow i just picked up the call. guess what he said. he said that he's just beside me. i turned immediately and saw him standing a few steps to my left. i just can't believe i am so damn blind! i hung up the phone (of course) and walked to him and both of us just started laughing like mad. He said he has been staring at me for a long time, but i didn't realize at all, and there is a nanyang girl standing behind who is staring at him wondering why he kept staring at me. I am so blind! haha.. ok i think i should stop blogging. i have to finish making birthday present for yu cheng. i still havent started to make birthday present for xiu hui. why must their birthday fall on the same day?
ok nothing much happened today. as usual. os results are going to be released on 27th feb, fri, also yu cheng and xiu hui's birthday. good luck to them haha. good luck to all. we have been contemplating about the date ever since i can't remember when, and suddenly in the middle of class today wee pin stood up and told the class that it is on the 27th. you could see all the stunned looks on our faces. well of course, we are all concerned about missing spa assessment and econs test and stuff. but now we miss gp. good. i don't have to research on it anymore. at least not for now.
for the benefit of others who read my blog and don't understand me, i shall try my best to type in proper english, although i know my grammar sucks. there is econs structured test tml, but of course i don't want to study for it, and so i am here typing in my dear blog. today was ok, nothing really much happened. on sunday i quarrelled with my mum over the choice of jcs. she wanted me to get into hc, but i wanted to stay in nj. we both tried to defend our stand, but apparently we didnt manage to reach any conclusion. and we had to quarrel in the morning when we were going for church. she told me that i should transfer to hc when i have the chance to. she is very confident that i can do it. but that's not the point. i asked her if she thought hc was better than nj, so she wanted me to transfer. she said no. so now i'm confused. if she doesn't think hc is better than nj, why bother to ask me to transfer? i told her what i was thinking, and she told me i shouldnt get emotionally attached too easily. so? i don't get the point! i got fed up talking to her about it. i stopped her by saying that we shall discuss it further when my results are out. in the afternoon she mentioned it again. i stopped her using the same reason. same thing happened at night. i just can't believe my mum is so damn insistent on me transferring. what's wrong with nj? i shall not bother about her for the time being. and she keeps thinking that all of us would make it. i'm not saying that we can't make it, but she is like 200% sure that we would all get something like 6 pts... the way she says it makes me angry. she's pushing me to go and celebrate with my sec sch friends. it's the first time she's telliing me to go and play with them, and come back only at 9pm. when i told her that it all depends on our results, she just didn't get my point and went on happily about where we should go. this is absurd. i shall not continue talking about my mum. it's getting me stressed and angry. some other stuff that got me pissed off, i shall not bother to say them here. all the stress accumulated in the past week is too much for me to bear. i am pissed and stressed. i am very tired.
well seriously nthg happened today... wad can happen when i juz stayed at home to do hwk n watch tv... read lao gong's blog n she said tt she would b coming to either nj or hc! yea! but still os results is a cause for worry... everyone is worried abt it... even if they r not toking abt it... this thing has been at the back of my mind whenever i do anything... i'm juz so plain scared abt os.... tho i noe theres nothing to worry abt since it's already fixed n i cant do anything abt it... hiya i'm juz being stupid.
well yest we had a class gathering at hester's hse.. hmmm everythin went on well n merv's finally fine... phew... but marvyn (hester's bro) is a super trouble maker! shant go into details abt diz.. waited for vic's mum until ard 11 n so reach home damn late.. but nvm.. so didnt manage to study for maths test but who cares.. but on the whole it was v enjoyable.. well it's the last gathering we would have b4 os results r released.. at 12 me n cyn started to converse with each other via sms.. until she fell asleep smsing me n i fell asleep waiting for her re at ard 1... i'm getting worried abt os... coz everyone ard me r.. oh no... my heart juz feels v heavy now bcoz of one reason or another... i juz dun feel like toking.
everyone in class is falling ill... miss tan, cand, yijun, joan, weepz etc... we have at least one person absent each day.. i tink i'm on the verge of falling ill too, wif this virus thing going on ard in class... n beat smsed me tonite saying tt her fren's mum's friend or whoever working in sph or sthg says tt os results coming out diz thurs... our class gathering! oh no shit....better dun.. i tink timing is real bad like diz... so do i do my econs now or wad? haha... oh wadeva.. os results r coming out real fast n i dun haf any mental preparation seriously. obviously no one has, whether frenz frm ny or nj. everyone is damn worried. so am i. i luv my ny frenz ie the zoo alot, they were the best lot of ppl i could ever have made frenz wif, but now i have another best lot of frenz in nj. i really enjoy the feeling of being able to mix around wif all my classmates.. coz in ny somehow we dun mix around as much.. or mebbe it's juz me. my mum said b4 tt it was really fortunate for me to have 5 good frenz frm lower sec class, get all separated into diff classes diff subj comb in upper sec, but still remain the best of frenz, even up till now. n she also tried to persuade me tt i shld go aim for hc, coz supposedly nj issnt as good as hc. i'm not tryin to say tt hc issnt good. it was the college i was aiming for. but unfortunately or fortunately i ended up here. it was a good thing i concluded after thinking. God brought me here and let me meet my classmates. but how am i supposed to tell my mum tt i luv my classmates n at the same time miss being in the same sch as my ny frenz? but whichever sch i choose my mum will support me so tt's not the pt. pt is, wad sch to choose... n who would leave, who would stay. my mum has a fren, n her class also decided tt they would stay together irregardless of os results. but they all got better than wad they expected, so most of them actually transferred out despite wadeva they said b4hand.. but they r still keeping in touch n having gatherings.. felt sad but comforted when my mum related diz.. sighz... i shall try to stop worrying.. no pt. God will show me the way...
ah well today is another uneventful day... cand got hurt tho... she had leg cramp... which turned out to b really painful, n not juz a leg cramp... she tore her muscle i tink... ouch.. no wonder she was so painful... well lets see wad else happened... i got my vday prezzie frm cyn n a letter too... was quite sad after reading it oh well.... but anyway i spent the nite writing a reply... hecked abt hwk obviously...tho we have loads to complete since thurs going hester's hse... hope everything goes on smoothly tho mervyn is still in a bad mood... hmmmmmz n i've decided i shall heck abt bio now... got no brain cells to do it liaoz..
well today was road run... hmmm wad shuld i write abt? actually nothing much happened during road run lohz.. i tink the route wasnt v good coz there were a lot of u turns.. make me quite frustrated.. well but anyway we were slacking our way thru after we finished running.. the guys ran after us, so joan n i decided to cheer on our class guys... as expected sum came in first den yan chuan.. didi was next... but sum got 21st... so damn wasted since they only gave medals up to 20th... but anyway, qing yang the joker was the 2nd last... ah well as expected i guess since he walked all the way hahahaha.... hmmmm den a bunch of us went off early to eat lunch at coro... i juz went there to watch them eat since i had to go home for lunch.. hmmmm nthg much happened lahz... as usual joking n laughing lohz... n obviously the whole gang of them were lagging at the back while me, joan n hester were walking in front... haha... den i went home replied to my class angel n did nthg else.. i slacked all afternoon w/o doing work.. i dunno how i managed to do it but somehow i did... so there... now gotta go n do econs tys liaoz...
today's really really really screwed up. everyone's mood was quite foul. i conclude that friday the 13th is really a bad day. well first the bus i took had to break down. well that doesn't really matter anyway. i wasn't exactly going to do anything when i get to sch. that's not the pt. pt is after that, everything went terribly wrong. obviously someone told merv about the rumour, and he was so damn pissed off. i just read his blog. of course naturally he would b pissed off. well somehow he traced back to weepz and that's where the prob comes. so didi was v upset. same with her. i know she feels really bad inside because of whatever that is passing around like wildfire. when i saw her after sch i really felt sorry for her. somehow she was just involved in all this without her doing anything. didi was interrogated. me n joan were v worried for him. apparently(i hope) nothing much happened. the atmosphere later was sort of back to normal, though i could see that the mood was a little dampened. i'm just hoping that merv will not b so pissed off now and that he still can be friends with didi after this. perhaps it was just that they trusted the wrong people. to say frankly, i'm still v worried. hope everything blows off soon. and this had to happen on v day eve. happiness. i hope merv is fine. i hope didi is fine. i hope she's fine. sighz...
ok... yest nthg much happened... joan didnt come n so now she's quite blur abt stuff.. but since she's so brillant she will b able to pick it up quite fast.. n i realized doing maths in sch is good... i stayed back to do maths tutorial wif weepz n victor... n i finished the whole tutorial.. v productive... so i shld stay back in sch in future to do maths... oh yah yest we had sthg like a class meeting after sch n weepz went on abt sad stuff like after os results n blah blah blah.. wanted to kill him there n then... why tok abt such sad stuff now?? well anyway so we r going to have a class gathering at hester's hse on 19 feb.. coz we didnt want it to b after 27th.. altho we have maths test on the next day, all of us r going to heck abt it... haha.. spending time wif the class is more impt.. i mean u haf maths test throughout the yr but we dont have gathering throughout the yr wad.. well anyway today is another ok day... well except tt today the whole class went laughing throughout the singing of the college anthem...coz merv was the one leading in the singing... wah lao some how it was damn funny lahz... when he stepped up the platform i started laughing liaoz... den joan n wanxuan who were in front of me joined in... halfway thru i stopped but saw both of them shaking so i started to laugh again.. in the end didnt sing anything at all... well actually he can sing much better than this, but since the anthem wasnt the song he liked best, the way he sang it was horrible... juz couldnt stop laughing... hahahhaha... oh and had guitar today... hmmm we learnt a few chords lah.. like c major, f major, a minor etc... well it was v slack lah... coz we still had to tune our guitars somemore... oh wadeva the case... i'm going to do stuff to give ppl for vday now b4 its too late.. v day is coming soon! haha...
i got super damn alot of hwk today... argh actually not alot juz tt i nv started work until now... coz i wrote to my angel n mortal... argh shouldnt have done tt but there was no motivation to do work until now... shit... but anyway today i didnt go n send adel off... feel quite bad about it... so smsed her n told her abt it... who ask us end late... oh well nvm... not much time to blog so shall stop..
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oh well... i didnt do much work today.. only did maths..as usual... well who cares... looking forward to vday..finally tot of wad to buy n who to give n stuff... n i wrote to my senior mortal! oh finally... i got quite scared when i heard tt os results will b released on ard 27 feb.. it suddenly dawned on me tt time is passing too fast, n it will b only in 3 wks time when we get our results... recalling all the stuff we said abt screwing up our ss n geog papers... oh no... i dun wanna b separated frm them so soon loh! i'm starting to miss them liao.. when i was toking abt it to kenneth... ah well... juz wad is going to happen to 04S27??? right to say tt we can still keep in touch.. but like i said it is different when u can juz stay back in sch n tok crap wif them until 5 or 6... teasing each other, bullying each other, laughing our heads off.. all these is not enuf wif juz a gathering or 2 each yr.... not enuf... i want them everyday.... but... sighz see how loh... juz gotta pray real hard... dun wanna get separated frm my jie, didi, meimei so soon loh... havent take family photo yet! haha...
hmmm today had 3.2 run around the sch... as usual all the uphills n downhills... was quite ok lah... didnt feel like dying but was tired lahz... hmm wrote letter to my dear class mortal yest... my angel havent wrote to me lohz... argh... joan oso havent receive her letter yet coz sumbody is slacking... weepz oso... we havent receive anything coz our sumbody is slacking lohz!!!! argh... nvm... i hope i get a nice angel... n will try to write to my poor thing senior mortal... oh yah today we saw everyone loh! sadness, happiness, shaun, derek, merv, cumarran, alene... n merv looked so funny on stage diz morning man... all of us were laughing.. probably at wad he did n his hairstyle.. haha... well anywayz, had lunch wif cyn n hito today... wow it's been quite some time since the 3 of us sat down to eat lunch together without having to rush our way through... it was really nice to see them n tok to them while eating lunch.. we've been doing tt for so long... i had to go back for lib duty... n the sky looked as tho it was going to rain, so hito gave me his umbrella... so nice of him... well but in the end i didnt use it.. he didnt want it back so i chucked it at the pigeon holes... if no one takes it den i'll use it when the need arises... when i went up i saw yuru!!!! we were so happy we hugged... it was a real long time liao loh.... somehow we were juz so excited.. haha... so toked for a while, went for lib duty... seeing yuru actually reminded me alot of ny choir.. n songs tt we sang started to ring in my mind... got reminded of ms lim n all the crap we went thru for the concerts, competitions, syfs, workshop wadeva... somewhat miss the time when i can hear ms lim tok crap one min n scold us in the next... i really miss singing in a choir... both in a gals one n a satb one... i only had a chance to sing in a satb choir, which is hwa chong... i really luv tt kind of feeling, but i guess i'll nv find it again...so now i'm real glad tt i did enjoy tt time! i suppose it has become once in a lifetime thing for me... i actually got quite sad shelving books.. v meaningless loh... actually guitar still got meaning.. lib... not much of a meaning... but no choice... i miss choir... ok enuf of diz... did i say tt roadrun aka xctry is on v day?? argh its so damn stupid... at turf city somemore.. sheesh... now diz is the first time i actually take notice of v day... n hope tt everyone gives me sthg... well.... being stupid... well but i'm v glad tt diz certain person is happy.. well somehow it sets me at ease..
well today i got hershey's kisses frm joan in a really cute container... bdae cum vday gift... i tot it was really sweet of her to give me tt... everyone tot so too...thx dear! hmmm wad else did we do.... zou sama came to sch to see me!!!!!! i'm really really delighted loh... so damn long nv see her liao... haha i bullied her again!!! nyahhahah tt was real fun.... n joan was there witnessing our childish actions.... hmmmm and of coz got glomped by her at the grandstand... i suppose many think we r les or sthg, seeing the way we walk... ok wadeva i didnt care last time so not going to care now...oh yah i do finally realize tt everyday i eat weepz's food.. mebbe i juz enjoy bullying him haha... but he does all the errands we ask him to do without complaining loh... at least he doesnt complain to me haha... such a nice didi to haf haha... weepz joan n i sat in the canteen eating a plate of fish n chips... den at 4.30 we spilt up... joan to rg, me to lib n weepz to cricket....oh yah mr goh our ex ct tutor came over n we said hi so we chatted for a while... miracle he still remembers us... he was still v concerned for us lah.... n so great man he's the lecturer tml!!!!!! hmmmm lib was ok... i mean wad else do u expect me to do except shelving books? oh shit! i juz realise i forgot to ask the auntie to sign for me shit!!!!!! does it mean i did duty for nothing oh nooooooo... oh well i'll find out tml.... hmmmm n since i juz read joan's blog abt what she's looking for in a guy, n v day is juz round the corner, i'll do it here too....
well today nothing much happened... but i juz finished my speech for gp presentation man! tt was real fast... i guess i juz wanted to get things over n done wif... feel a bit upset today dunno y.. guess i tot of stuff tt i shldnt have... well anyway now waiting for yun qi's info on gp to come.... havent timed my speech yet... hope it's long enuf...hmm another uneventful day tml... tml's all tutorials! argh...
ok mum allowed me to go n send adel off... actually she didnt even say anything as to whether she approve or not. i juz told her i would go... haha so tt sounded more like informing her rather than asking for permission... but i didnt tell her i'll only leave at ard 9+... i shall wait until later den say... haha... well anyway there's nthg much to say... so yah.... today is another xian day... juz doing hwk all day tt's all...
well my frenz going out on mon to watch movie... why cant i? hiya nvm... juz gotta bear wif moi mum... anyway on 9 feb, adelene is going to leave for aust... heard it frm maxine... sighz... feel quite sad tho i'm not really close to her... wadeva the case we've been classmates for the whole of our pri sch lives... 6 yrs loh... i havent seen her or toked to her for a v long time liao... so i shall make it a pt to go n send her off... another pri sch frenz gathering! yeahhhh